Whenever I meet new people and they find out I don’t really drink alcohol, I worry they are getting the wrong idea about me. They probably think that I’m one of those people that can just get through life stone cold sober without any accommodations. In reality, I’m currently prescribed 20 mg of Trintellix, 150 mg of Wellbutrin, 1 mg of Ativan as needed and I partake in some form of weed usage every day.
This last part is the part that makes me uncomfortable. It is one thing for me to take medication prescribed by a psychiatrist, it is another for me to use a drug that, until somewhat recently, was illegal in my state and holds a lot of negative connotations. My continued use of weed to help my nighttime anxiety and allow myself to relax at the end of the day elicits a range of conflicting emotions. In fact, it is by far the most conflicted I feel about any of my life choices.