A strange silver lining of recovering from knee surgery is that I am getting a bit of a “break” from my OCD. For the last two weeks, I have been physically unable to give in to my cleaning compulsions. I can’t meticulously do my own laundry or immediately wipe down any surface I suddenly deem contaminated. I am at the mercy of other people’s cleanliness standards, and it’s shown me two important things: 1) I can handle more than I think I can handle and 2) my mental illness makes up a whole lot of rules. For example, I cannot change my clothes for over a day and still feel okay. I can climb into bedsheets that are less fresh than I would like and still fall asleep. I cannot wash one of my legs in the shower and still feel clean afterwards. OCD has less of a mental hold on me when physical pain shows up to the party.
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