Allison. Thank you for having the courage to write about this. I can imagine that your mom is a beautiful soul, and I am sure that this process is hard for you. This is so beautiful what you wrote, and it brought tears to my eyes. I went through this when my mom passed away. I didn't know how I would make it without Momma, if I were to have another child. I had 3 little ones when she passed. Seven years after my mom passed away, my baby boy was born—13 years after our baby girl. I was devastated at first because this was the first child that wouldn't know Grandma. I keep my Momma spirit alive always and he knows Grandma as if she is here. He knows the pictures and the stories I tell about Momma. My mom passed on 12/9 and my son was born 9/21. There was power in numbers and he was truly the mend that my heart needed. I know your mom is with you daily and will be with your baby(babies). Sending you lots of hugs and happiness on this beautiful journey of you and your husband ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this with me, Netta. It is so wonderful to know that her spirit can and will live on, even for those that never knew her. Sending you so much love.
This is so beautiful! We’ve also been trying to conceive since losing my dad last November, and I hope to have some good news on that soon ♥️ Rooting for you! The world needs more self aware parents xx
Am I spending New Year's Eve reading your Substack? Yes. Am I also crying? Yes, I think I needed to. I have been following your career since the BuzzFeed days. As an anxious girlie pre-ADHD diagnosis, I related to you in a way I couldn't explain. I always thought your tight bond with your mom reminded me of how I felt with my family's matriarchs, whom I couldn't go a day without speaking to.
My last conversation with my grandma, before she got very sick suddenly and died shortly after being admitted to a hospital, was around the topic of kids and how she wanted me to have them soon—I giggled but said no. It’s still no. I'm only 32. I’ll know it’s time when I know it’s time, but God, it stings to know she won’t be around to see any of this happen. Or bring me Sprite when that season comes, and I eventually feel dizzy (knock on wood, I won't). I might have broken down crying over a bottle of Sprite during Christmas. Grief is strange.
I don’t like that we are both going through such a loss, but in a way, I can’t help but feel relieved that you're writing and putting it out there. You're a gem, Allison.
PS: Your mom was always one of my favorite characters in all of your skits with Gabe back then, as well as your books.
dear allison,
beautiful writing, as always. thank you for sharing as much of your journey as you do.
also, did you know that "schmegegge" is a yiddish word that basically means "nonsense"?
love you!
myq
Oh i had absolutely no idea! That makes so much sense! Thank you!! xoxo A
Oh Allison, how lucky your future child will be to have a mother with such a kind and open heart. They may never meet Ruth, but they will know her.
Thank you so much, Kerry. I hope they will know her <3
Allison. Thank you for having the courage to write about this. I can imagine that your mom is a beautiful soul, and I am sure that this process is hard for you. This is so beautiful what you wrote, and it brought tears to my eyes. I went through this when my mom passed away. I didn't know how I would make it without Momma, if I were to have another child. I had 3 little ones when she passed. Seven years after my mom passed away, my baby boy was born—13 years after our baby girl. I was devastated at first because this was the first child that wouldn't know Grandma. I keep my Momma spirit alive always and he knows Grandma as if she is here. He knows the pictures and the stories I tell about Momma. My mom passed on 12/9 and my son was born 9/21. There was power in numbers and he was truly the mend that my heart needed. I know your mom is with you daily and will be with your baby(babies). Sending you lots of hugs and happiness on this beautiful journey of you and your husband ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this with me, Netta. It is so wonderful to know that her spirit can and will live on, even for those that never knew her. Sending you so much love.
❤️❤️❤️
Much love to you and you muddle through grief and what it means for future plans.
Thank you <3
Thank you for sharing, again it’s very moving and beautifully written.
Thank you for reading <3
Thank you for sharing it’s always lovely.
Thank you for reading <3
Beautiful post!
Thank you <3
This is so beautiful! We’ve also been trying to conceive since losing my dad last November, and I hope to have some good news on that soon ♥️ Rooting for you! The world needs more self aware parents xx
Rooting for you too! And may his memory be a blessing <3
heartbreaking text, in the best way, so full of love.
good luck!
Thank you <3
Hugs
<3
Beautiful, you make me cry so often with your writing ❤️
Thank you so much for reading <3
Am I spending New Year's Eve reading your Substack? Yes. Am I also crying? Yes, I think I needed to. I have been following your career since the BuzzFeed days. As an anxious girlie pre-ADHD diagnosis, I related to you in a way I couldn't explain. I always thought your tight bond with your mom reminded me of how I felt with my family's matriarchs, whom I couldn't go a day without speaking to.
My last conversation with my grandma, before she got very sick suddenly and died shortly after being admitted to a hospital, was around the topic of kids and how she wanted me to have them soon—I giggled but said no. It’s still no. I'm only 32. I’ll know it’s time when I know it’s time, but God, it stings to know she won’t be around to see any of this happen. Or bring me Sprite when that season comes, and I eventually feel dizzy (knock on wood, I won't). I might have broken down crying over a bottle of Sprite during Christmas. Grief is strange.
I don’t like that we are both going through such a loss, but in a way, I can’t help but feel relieved that you're writing and putting it out there. You're a gem, Allison.
PS: Your mom was always one of my favorite characters in all of your skits with Gabe back then, as well as your books.